Deductions, conclusions...indecisive decisions. They all make up the bulk of our brain activity. From the simple act (sometimes vexing!) of deciding what to eat for your meals, to the unconscious knowlege of judging people. For example have you ever sat next to the ah lians in the mrt & roll your eyes at their unbelievable topics of discussions & labelling them as childish? I know im guilty of doing that, god forgive me.. for how can i complain of the splinter in other people's eyes when i don't even see the plank in my own?
I learnt something today while spending some time reflecting on my way to work in the loooong mrt ride. Something i realized bout myself. I always say that my flesh is weak, that my mind refuses to conform to what my heart feels. I know the things I do are right if i know it would not displease God. How then can i keep myself away from the ways of the world & find freedom in resting in God's plan for me when i refuse to let him come in to take control? I've been horribly hard headed, thinking i can handle all messes i have concocted on my own & solve them without God's help. By now you've guess that ain't working out too well...
God revealed to me that he works in 3 ways to help mould our lives to be more like him. Firstly, he speaks to us through his word(the bible). If we refuse to budge or dont allow his word to move us, then the second way God will try to touch us is through his holy spirit. If even this does not get to our thick skulls, then the last resort is through circumstances. Circumstances that either are put in by God to learn something(check out job in the bible), or circumstances we sometimes put ourselves into due to bad decisions made, out from sinning against God. But it is our response to these circumstances that will ensure that we do learn from somthing out of all the mess. B'cos God can turn the tables around for the better if we choose to learn from our mistakes. Repentence in Greek = To turn back.
What the heck am i driving at? Why am i preaching a sermon in my blog..i have no idea man. This is just my brain running away with me again.. Mayb i just need to preach a sermon for myself to hear? To speak it by faith. But i do hope that everyday from now on, i will be able to find strength in making the decision to live for God, meaning no more depressive thoughts, no more self pity, no more pining for something that i know is not what the Lord has planned for me in my Life. Help me Oh Lord to always walk in your truth & light. Help me so that I can help others around me find help in You. Teach me Your ways.
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