I Wondered

I wondered how is it that God allowed suffering. I thought about all the nasty things & ugly stuff that was dished out to me. Did i really deserve such treatment from the people i placed my trust & love in? Certainly not, but it still happened. And so it did fer a reason... that i may not know now, but i trust in time to come, i would understand the greater purpose beyond the hurt i felt and feel now.
"Careful, girl!" my heart cries out to me... dont ever let resentment or hurt turn into hatred.. and "Take Heart!", don let your mind build up the fence and wall of 'protection'. Cos then you might be missing out the greatest things in life while being cooped up inside the walls.
One advice i heard today from my dad... " The greatest potential of someone hurting you, is when u trust and place a whole lot of expectations on that person." The greater the expectation, and when the person fails/disappoints you, you cant help feeling like you have fallen from a certain height... depending on how much 'elevation' u gave to that person.Note Taken dad.. thanks.
Talking alot more to my parents & bro the past week... guess in the midst of preparing to leave S'pore... we felt the need to bond more... even planned for a trip to Europe next April, jus before my bro enters NS... looking forward to that trip most definately.
Im rightly contented now, hanging out with genuine friends, spending time with my family, doing God's works. Im working towards not expecting more outta life, than what it can offer.Well, i guess a nice surprise for Christmas wouldn hurt Santa! He heh... Just joking... cos fer ya guys out there who don't know the secret, let me let the cat outta the bag..... Santa's fictional dudes!!!! Yeah.... Oh you knew that already? Drats. *Grinz* But hey good news... God is real! Love ya...